At The End...

I've closed down my blogs for serveral times.

At the end of my blogs, it was always because of...

Misery.

Not excluding this one.

I will continue to write my nonsense at

http://aboringpieceofme.blogspot.com/


Hello Pigger, this is Piggest writing to you.
I haven't seen you online for more than a week.
I'm not sure if you're avoiding me or not.
And I'm not sure if you still come here to read my nonsense.
But that's okay,
I guess it's not some important message to you anyway.
I haven't let go of you, and to be frank,
I didn't even want to take a step into letting go.
Reason is obvious, I still hope that things will go back.

I was always stalking your closed-down blog.
Hoping to see you re-opening it
with the template you designed for us.
I was always stalking your Facebook page.
Hoping that you wouldn't change oUr profile picture.
Hoping that you wouldn't delete oUr photos' folder.
Hoping that there isn't any photo of you with a new guy.
I was always signing in to MSN.
Hoping that you wouldn't change oUr display picture.
But I know whether all the above had happened already or not,
it doesn't matter.
I realised things just can't go back anymore.

Devastating
is not just because of the end of oUr relationship.
But also the end of oUr 5 years of good old friendship.
And also because
I miss..
seeing you turning the wrong direction of your key to open the door,
entering the small room in your kitchen and call "Uncle",
petting and secretly feeding the already-fed Miffy and Mung Mung,
clearing the mess on your sofa, nua-ing on sofa and watching TV,
having your dad asking us to eat fruits after we were so full from dinner,
going back into the small room and said "Uncle 我先走了，byebye",
being surprise to bump into 2jie and Mark at the lift.

I don't want to take down oUr photos on Facebook yet,
I don't want to change my MSN display picture yet,
I don't want to delete your e-mails yet,
I don't want to delete your messages in my phone yet,
I don't want to remove my handphone diao diao yet,
But the fact that I'm moving into another blog,
I believe I'm taking the first step into letting go.
I wouldn't promise that I won't stalk your Facebook page again,
but rest assure that I will not give myself any false hope already.

I know you don't like to ask help from people
whom you are not close with,
feeling that you're making use of them.
But seriously, you are a best friend of my life time,
and I will be most gladly to be there for you when you need me.
Just don't forget that ... there's still me.

I Love You

Breaking 2 "No"s in a Night

"No alcohol."

"No clubbing."

Alcohol taste sucks.

But it feels good to be drunk.

Things changed.

People changed.

Maybe I'm just forcing myself to change.

After all,

I don't see the point of trying to be the perfect guy.

The Fugly Truth

When you really want to know the truth about something,

yet you are very sure that the truth will hurt you,

will you still want to find out the truth?

Well yes in my case.

I'm stubborn, and I've regretted.

Because what I have in return,

is not just a fucking ugly truth,

but I've also hurt myself, and others.


I came across this wise man.

He told me something which I had already experienced,

but I just didn't realise it.

The truth is, time will not heal for what you've lost,

it will only keep on going until those memories are fading,

all you need is a tiny reminder, and they will all come back to you.

Only when something came in place of those memories,

then will you be healed.

Well, it's true that the time when I completely let go of my Princess,

was the time when I realised I fell in love with my Best Friend.

But now, it seems like I've lost my Best Friend...

A Little More About Myself 2

Being the youngest in my family,

I am always protected and sheltered.

Which gives me a very stubborn mindset,

I am weak,

it doesn't matter whether I exist or not.

Being a weakling,

I am super passimistic,

lacking in confident,

and having very low self worth.

At some chapters in my life,

I found significant people whom I would take care of,

or rather,

people whom I thought would rely on me.

Those times, I felt so much needed in this world.

At the end of those chapters,

it always turn out that actually,

I am the one who relied on them.

It is because of them, I felt stronger, I felt needed.

But at the end of the day, I've come to realised that

it really doesn't matter whether I exist or not,

I am still that weakling.

And at the end of those chapters,

everything starts from zero:

I wished I was never born.

For the first time,

FML

Medical Examination

I was found to have abnormal Electrocardiography (ECG)

Pretty cool to hear that I have such condition

after living a 20 years of normal life.

Not much of a serious condition though.

Will do a second check up again to confirm the results.

Sacasm Fail

A less than Primary School boy was with his dad

in a shopping mall toilet.

The Dad said:

You wet your pants,

you wet the floor,

and you wet your shoes.

Well done, well done.

I believe that the boy assumed that

he was being complimented.

Ai..

My SIP ended.

I know this applies to most TP students,

but everyone has his/her story to tell I guess.

Contrary to the previous post,

I'm gonna miss the people and things there.

Just when I'm starting to enjoy my time there,

it comes to an end.

Well, all I can say is that,

my colleagues are great.

It's them who made me enjoy my SIP.

They feel more than just colleage to me =).

A Little More About Myself

Everything I see or hear,

I may not show any expression,

and may not say anything.

But thoughts will start popping out in my head.

Many people know me as the person who is:

expressionless, boring, quiet.

Here's the point:

I am someone who don't really share my thoughts

which, well, shun many people away.

No matter where I go, no matter who I am with,

I'm usually the listener, a good listener literally,

who just purely listen, and nothing spoken out.

And there goes my circle of friends.

Not like I really mind them giving me up as a friend,

I don't think in the real world,

there is a group of friends that need a 木头人 to be around with.

Of course, there are still some people who asked me out.

They either:

have no other choice but to find me,

just felt obliged to, or

really appreciate me?

Well, maybe it's just a matter of time.

Regardless, I really DO appreciate them,

although back to the second and third line,

I do not show.

And especially to this silly girl,

Cause I don't think I can find another one,

who can tolerate such a 木头 guy.

Thank you =).

Big Change!

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-1347140/Horoscope-change-2011-Sidereal-astrology-reveals-13th-OPHIUCHUS-zodiac-sign.html

Sagittarius, that's what I am now.

I was a Capricorn.

A very brief note:

"In astrology, Capricorn is considered an introvert sign.

Sagittarius is considered a "masculine", positive (extrovert) sign."

I think introvert suits me better.

Not that I read horoscope a lot,

but it's just weird!

Plus I like Capricorn more.

A sea goat sounds cooler than a centaur to me.

Oh well.

Be Humble

Person A and Person B are working on a same mission.

A is smart, and picks up things quick.

While B is rather a slow learner.

Many times, B makes mistakes here and there,

and often seek help from A.

After a long time, A feels superior to B,

and B usually just accept whatever A says,

since he feels that he is always wrong.

Although very slowly,

B is learning and picking up things.

Sometimes, when B realise what A's doings are wrong,

he pointed out to A.

But A don't really listen, and stick to his plan.

And at the end of the day,

A realise he was indeed wrong.

Still, due to a prolong period of being superior,

he finds it too hard to accept and apologise.